I was invited my a friend to the launch of her very own jewelry line this past Saturday. I was thrilled at the prospect of getting out of the house, seeing her after so many years and supporting her with her new endeavor as a WAHM.
Saturday came, my hubby was all set to take care of her that evening, I washed my hair and then, good old, reliable SELF SABOTAGE kicked in. I found myself looking for an excuse not to go! I always complain about how lonely I am and about how I don't have many friends, and here was an opportunity to reconnect with an old friend and maybe even make new ones and I was actively seeking an excuse not to go!!!
So if I knew that I was sabotaging myself, the question is, did I go to my friends launch? The answer, sadly, is NO. I kept telling myself I was going but before I knew it (or maybe I did) it was too late to leave the house anyway.
The important lesson from this story is that I just realized that the only reason I am without friends is because I don't allow myself to make them. I think that realizing I have this problem is the first step. Now that I am aware, I have to be strong and fight the urge to sabotage myself.
I have to reconnect with the old me! The pre-hubby, pre-baby, always ready to make new friends, ME!
Are there any self-sabotagers out there? How do you fight your self-sabotage?